Im in the dark.

Okay, so i have realised that that "thing" i done was incredibly stupid.
Its caused me alot of hurt and also ended a rather nice friendship.
I was incredibly stupid to have gone along with it, what was i thinking?
I cant wait till New Years, im gonna just forget bout it ALL!
I know that one day its gonna creep up on me again, but in the meantime im gonna pretend like nothing has happend, that nothing has changed, and im gonna try and stop whinging about it! Gahhh, I just cant help it. I cant wait for my holiday, the one chance i have to just get away, run away from my problems for a week, itd be rather nice.
I have hayfever and its soo gay.
Tomorrow is my last day of work intill the tenth or the eleventh. Thats also another good thing,
Im working a three and a half hour shift today, thats pretty stupid if you ask me but you didnt haha so there you go.
I hope i dont bump into that persoin at work it is so awkward atm. I hate it, We can hardly talk anymore and there not replying to my messages so i just dont even bother. Dont wana be one of those stalker peoples who dont leave other people alone, ive hada few ov them in my time :(

*sigh*

I did something incredibly stupid,
I cant take it back, and sometimes i dont actully want too. Does that make me a bad person?
I know what i have done will hurt some people, but i dont regret it. I feel so awful but i loved it at the very same time.
And the main problem is, im sworn to secrecy, no one can ever know what has happened, and i think its stupid, but its the only way from stopping people from ever getting hurt.
Sometimes i think Oh My God i cannot believe that has happened, or was it a dream, then at other times i cant even eat, knowing what i have done could be the worst thing ever but i enjoyed it at the very same time.
Wowee life has changed, i duno if its for better, or for worse.
Im scared what im becomming. I dont want to be like what im thinking.
Ahh on a much lighter note, i am extremly tired. I had work at like 9:30am yesterday and only getting three hours sleep the previous night + hungover really didnt do me any good, so the day went incredibly slow and it was very fustrating, so afterwards i went towning with Emma and after that i walked home then went on this massive walk just round to clear my head, really did me no good cos i was just more tired and woke up this morning incredibly sore.
Oh well best be off i have stuff to do, shopping and work gahh,
Have a loverly day, if any of you have bothered to read this.
xo

Blahhhhhh

Sooo, i forgot to write a blog last noght (typical) lol
i was busyyy! ok, hmm now what did i do yesterday? Welllllll i had work so that prety much ruined my day.
I was stuck on dairy for like two and a half hours it was so gay i had to put like milk and crap ewww and hams on the shelf, hams are really heavy lolol, then i had to go to produce to dump the cardbord and the guy there was creepy lol i think he was just tryna be nice but meh.
Then after work i helped mum do some xmas hampers which consisted of me cutting string and eating lollies lolol. Then we went and looked at that west plains road xmas house. omgsh its so cute!!
Anywhoo i have plans today to go and see Emma and give her her xmas pressie and hopefully do some more shopping yay...nawt, im real negative towards xmas (probly cos im doing nothing on the actul day) and on boxing day im going to see Twilight with my cousins, YAYAY! i really cant wait ive been DIEING to see the movie :D:D:D
AMBER I LOVE YOU, even tho your gonna have to do all the cooking cos i suck haha,
Welllllll i duno what else to write i should probly get motivated and get on with the day,
If your reading this i think your extremly cool haha
xo

Sampson.

I really dont have a clue why i have created a blog? Purely because i am aweful at keeping up to date and i know that in three or four years this will come back to haunt me like the last one did.
Sooo i got off work before and usual nighttime activity is to come home, get something to eat and go on the computer...nothing has changed.
Work sucked. Always does.
And right now im thinking to myself...why am i not reading Eclipse, what the f**k is wrong with me? Ohhh i am just obsessed a lil bit too much with Twilight. Its my addiction at the moment.
And i also love crosses, im catholic but not very religious but i love to wear crosses. Im thinking of getting one tatooed on me, Opinions would be rather appreciated.
I have work tomorrow, gah, screw it all. Right now im craving a Caramel Hot Chocolate from starbucks MMM Yummos.
I HATE xmas shopping, it sucks hardout! I havent finished yet, and im working hardout all the way up till xmas, Bummm as.
I bet you no ones bothered to read this, i wouldnt of it seems rather boring to me.
Best be off to bed gota early start tomorrow lol.
xo