*sigh*

I did something incredibly stupid,
I cant take it back, and sometimes i dont actully want too. Does that make me a bad person?
I know what i have done will hurt some people, but i dont regret it. I feel so awful but i loved it at the very same time.
And the main problem is, im sworn to secrecy, no one can ever know what has happened, and i think its stupid, but its the only way from stopping people from ever getting hurt.
Sometimes i think Oh My God i cannot believe that has happened, or was it a dream, then at other times i cant even eat, knowing what i have done could be the worst thing ever but i enjoyed it at the very same time.
Wowee life has changed, i duno if its for better, or for worse.
Im scared what im becomming. I dont want to be like what im thinking.
Ahh on a much lighter note, i am extremly tired. I had work at like 9:30am yesterday and only getting three hours sleep the previous night + hungover really didnt do me any good, so the day went incredibly slow and it was very fustrating, so afterwards i went towning with Emma and after that i walked home then went on this massive walk just round to clear my head, really did me no good cos i was just more tired and woke up this morning incredibly sore.
Oh well best be off i have stuff to do, shopping and work gahh,
Have a loverly day, if any of you have bothered to read this.
xo